A Day in the Life of a Photography Blogger – Day 25 – House Hunt
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Day 25 is here and I’m on a house hunt!
But first I must acknowledge that I did not post yesterday… Oops. I got so carried away with life, I just forgot. My sincerest apologies.
But before I recap today’s house hunt, I will fill you in on yesterday’s antics.
I was feeling quite blue yesterday. I had my regular Thursday morning appointments, which were just fine, but honestly I just couldn’t shake the blues. I think I needed a good cry, but I couldn’t manage to work one up. Ever have days like that? I do, but not regularly.
I think it stemmed from some grief I’ve been working through. Perhaps you remember from earlier in the week that I said goodbye to a friend very suddenly? I would be lying to say that we were besties. We were more of what I would call solid acquaintances. It can truly be said that I intended to get to know her better. In fact, we were beginning to talk about taking a photography trip together in 2020.
A Life Too Short
You see, LaraJoy was an amazing photographer of Wild Horses. She often traveled to Utah to photograph them in their natural setting. I respected her love for the wild horses so much and wanted a little piece of the magic of the wild to hang on my wall. For me, as a photographer, it’s not enough to purchase someone else’s work. I want to make my own. So I was feeling excited about taking a trip out West with her so we could photograph these magical creatures together. Sadly, that will not happen now.
I was feeling like I had no right to grieve for LaraJoy because we were not close friends. We met two years ago and most of our friendship was conducted by way of chats on social media. We talked cats, horses, photography, and business. She had 3 sweet kitties named Carter, Clementine, and Lucas. We had a shared love of our furry friends, and we both loved photography and both owned businesses. We had much in common. I intended to get to know her better. And that opportunity was lost when she left this earth too soon at the age of only 51.
Grief is a Funny Thing
I was beginning to feel like I had no right to grieve for LaraJoy because we were not close friends. We met two years ago and most of our friendship was conducted by way of chats on social media. We talked cats, horses, photography, and business. And I intended to get to know her better. And that opportunity was lost when she left this earth too soon at the age of only 51.
An unexpected death has the power to bring us to a place where we consider what it really means to be alive and to be in relationships with others. I have a gift for making friends. If I like you and decide you’re going to be my friend, I am likely going to pour myself into that effort, so when it’s cut short, I feel many kinds of defeat and sadness. I feel the loss of that budding friendship very deeply…
As a Christian, I believe that LaraJoy is at the feet of God and in a much better place than I am, left here on earth. However, I didn’t have those important conversations with her. Where was her heart? Did she know Jesus? I am so very sad that I don’t know these answers. My hope is in Him, and that hope allows me to believe that I will have all of the opportunities I missed when I get to heaven and reunite with my friend and all of those who have gone before me. Here on earth, I am just sad. Sad for the loss of a friend who I didn’t get to know as well as I would have liked.
Yesterday was a day for reflection and a day to allow myself to grieve. Grief happens in unique ways for each of us, and can come in unexpected waves at times and places where we don’t expect it. The truth is, grief is not subject to rules about who we feel it for and when we need to feel it. It’s best to just experience it when it comes and live within it. Yesterday I needed to live in my grief.
The House Hunt
Today is a new day and I woke up in much better spirits than yesterday. I completed some office work and ran a load of laundry, then buzzed over to pick up my favorite little guy early this afternoon. Wayde’s mama had a last minute change of plans with her schedule, so we decided to have an impromptu adventure.
We loaded up the baby and headed out to check out a house that we’ve seen on Zillow that has potential. Dan and I are getting older and our home, although lovely, is no longer the perfect fit for us. We’ve been considering our options and thinking and dreaming of what the next house will look like. Whitney and I both saw this home and thought it had potential, so off we went.
Unfortunately, it’s been built on a road that is so new that the map doesn’t even show that the road exists. We went on a wild goose chase, but eventually found it! It was truly a House Hunt!
A Tour on the Sly!
When we arrived, we hopped out of the car and went to peek into the windows. It looked awfully small, so we were both feeling like it’s not the right fit for us. But to be thorough, we wandered around the back and peeked in those windows as well. Imagine my surprise when I tried the garage door and lo and behold, it opened! I slipped in and checked the house door. Sure enough – unlocked! I couldn’t miss this opportunity, so we popped our shoes off and took a little tour on the sly. Shhhh…. don’t tell.
Somehow it felt much bigger once we were inside. Not huge, mind you, but bigger than from the window view. I’m not entirely certain it’s the right house for us, but it does give me hope that there is a house that will be right when we’re ready.
For now, Dan and I will go take a peek at it together tomorrow so he can weigh in. In the meantime, the house hunt continues… Stay tuned to see what happens next!
Signing out for tonight. Back at’cha tomorrow!